Guest Posting by Lodro Rinzler Author of ‘The Buddha Walks into a Bar’ and ‘The Buddha Walks into the Office’

Meditation Isn’t Enough: A Buddhist Perspective on Suicide

The news of Robin Williams’ passing is shocking and touching so many of us. I was waiting for a friend at a bar when I first heard. All around me people erupted in a variety of emotional reactions as the word quickly spread. In the time since, a common reaction has been deep sadness, often paired with a sentiment of “I never thought someone like him would kill themselves.”
What we mean when we say “I never thought someone like him…” is that we can’t wrap our minds around certain people whom we deem successful or joyful or wise suffering from the same sorts to the demons that we ourselves face. Studies have shown that one in ten people in the United States are afflicted with depression. Robin Williams is said to be one of these people. In response to the news of Williams’ death his friend Harvey Fierstein wrote, “Please, people, do not f– with depression. It’s merciless. All it wants is to get you in a room alone and kill you. Take care of yourself.”
Yet for anyone who has suffered from depression or had suicidal thoughts, you know that self-care is the last thing you want to do when you feel that down. I teach meditation, and write books about how it effects our everyday life. That is the form of self-care that I preach. The sort of people who want to learn about meditation aren’t the “All is well and good in my world” type. They are people who have come to terms with the fact that they suffer. They are people finally looking at big transitions in their life, strong emotional states, and feelings of stress, anxiety, and depression. So you would think that having taught meditation for thirteen years and worked with these people I would be a pro at this whole “take care of yourself” thing.
I have never publicly admitted this, but given the stigma around mental health issues and suicide I feel that I need to now: two years ago I was suicidal. I had written a best-selling Buddhist book and had begun working on the second one when the rug was pulled out from under me in a multitude of ways. My fiancé left me, quite out of the blue, without any recognizable reason. That set me down a self-destructive road which was only heightened when, a month later, due to budget cut-backs, my full-time job was eliminated. The straw that broke the camel’s back came a few weeks after that; one of my best friends died of heart failure at the age of 29. I felt estranged from my family, and two major support structures, my fiancé and my friend were now gone, so I began to self-medicate in a destructive way. I knew better, but the vastness of my depression consumed any thoughts around self-care and regular meditation.
I cannot explain how fathomless my sadness was during that period. I had a roof I would go up to every single day and contemplate jumping. I convinced myself that my first book was out there helping people, so maybe I should finish the second one. I sat down and wrote the second half of that book, which oddly enough comes out next month. It gave me purpose, and during that short period of time friends started to catch on something was wrong with me.

I remember a day when I was particularly low. My friend Laura asked me to dinner but I could not stand to be in a restaurant, surrounded by people who seemed normal. We sat in a nearby park as it got dark, with homeless people urinating nearby and the rats slowly coming out to play. She was very patient with me, as I was not interested in leaving. Finally she asked the question, “Have you ever thought about hurting yourself?” I broke down in tears and within the week was guided by her and others into therapy. A week later I returned to the meditation cushion. A week after that I began eating regularly. A week after that I finally got a full night’s sleep.
I mention my story because there’s not just a social stigma around mental health issues, there’s also a Buddhist one. I have seen some Buddhist teachers make remarks about depression as a form of suffering; that one should be able to meditate and have everything be okay, in lieu of prescription medication. That is not true; meditation is not a cure-all for mental illness. The Buddha never taught a discourse entitled, “Don’t Help Yourself, Continue to Suffer Your Chemical Imbalance.” If you have a mental illness, meditation may be helpful, but should be considered an addition to, not a substitution for, prescribed medication.
I write this article for two reasons. The first is to say that Robin Williams is a person. I am a person. And like all people, we struggle with a myriad form of suffering. And sometimes things feel like they are too much for us to handle. Just because Robin Williams was a comedian, a celebrity, or someone we viewed as a joyful person did not mean he wasn’t fighting demons unknown to us. I share my story in the same vein; the fact that I struggled with suicidal thoughts does not negate my years of meditation experience or understanding of the Buddhist teachings, but shows that I am human and sway to suffering like all humans are. You can be well-practiced and still struggle like anyone else. Robin Williams ended up taking his life. I was lucky in that I was able to seek help and no longer feel the way I once did. In fact, that experience only deepened my appreciation for the practice of meditation and the Buddhist teachings. In many ways, my life has turned around.
The second reason I write this article is because my life turned around because I sought help. Buddhists can’t just take everything to the meditation cushion and hope it will work out. When things get tough, as in to the point that you can’t imagine getting out of bed in the morning tough, you need help. And there should be no shame in seeking it. If you even remotely feel like you are struggling with depression, or are going through an emotional time that simply feels out of control, the best way to take care of yourself is to seek guidance from trained professionals. Sure that can be a meditation teacher, but a therapist may prove more helpful at that time. Therapy in-and-of itself can be a mindfulness practice, where you bring your full attention for an hour each week to what is expressing itself in your body and your mind.
Don’t feel like you have to go it alone. Meditation does not preclude or diminish the power of therapeutic methods. They are powerful in their own right. There are trained people out there who can work with you to navigate your suffering. Do not be scared to seek help.
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Meeting Our Suffering Self: Guest Posting by Mary Ellen Luczun, MSN, RN, PMHCNS-BC

I recently came across the word “compassionate” in a spiritual book entitled: Your Sorrow is My Sorrow: Hope and Strength in Times of Suffering by Joyce Rupp (1999). The Merriam-Webster dictionary lists the word compassionate as feeling or showing concern for someone who is sick, hurt, poor; having or showing compassion. Rupp, however, uses the word in a way that gave me pause, as she described events in her life that called upon her to compassionate herself. Back to the dictionary I went and learned that “to compassionate” means to ache for; bleed for; commiserate with; pity, condole with; feel for; sympathize with; and yearn over. ( Ultimately, the act of compassionating oneself or another, is the act of showing compassion. Compassion can be defined as sympathetic consciousness of others’ distress together with a desire to alleviate it. This definition pairs the awareness of another’s distress with the desire to alleviate the distress.
We have all heard the expression “you have to love yourself before you can love another”. It seems to be the same with compassion in that we must first be compassionate with or compassionate ourselves before we can compassionate others. The question is: How often do we take the time to compassionate ourselves or to really get in touch with whatever we are suffering? I have also come across another definition of compassion, succinctly put, it means to suffer with. We can now re-phrase the question to read: how often do we take the time to suffer with ourselves; to meet our suffering self? Let’s face it, suffering is physically, emotionally and spiritually painful, and a fearful prospect at that. Fear means danger….do not enter….do not go there. It is not surprising then that so many of us are running from our suffering selves in one way or another, with a host of detours taking us in other directions. Sooner or later, however, those detours will put us back on the main road again, leading us towards our destination; our rendezvous with our suffering self.
In his book The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth (1978), Scott Peck begins his first chapter with the sentence: “Life is difficult” (p. 15). He goes on to say that it is one of the “Four Noble Truths” which Buddha taught: “Life is suffering.” No one can deny that life is a series of problems producing an array of emotions ranging from fear to anguish and despair. Peck points out that these uncomfortable feelings of pain associated with problems are among the reasons we refer to them as problems in the first place. Very simply, “It is because of the pain that these events engender in us that we call them problems (p.16).” Peck believes problems not only call forth courage and wisdom but actually create them, allowing us to grow mentally and spiritually. He does admit, however, that most of us are not so wise, and fearing the pain involved almost all of us, to a greater or lesser degree, attempt to avoid problems. To avoid the suffering that results from dealing with problems, we also avoid the growth that problems demand from us (p.17). Peck goes so far as to state that the tendency to avoid problems and the pain inherent in them is the primary basis of all human mental illness. The latter then produces a condition in which we stop growing and become stuck. Eventually, the human spirit (in the absence of healing) begins to shrivel (p. 17).
The pain generated from problems we encounter can be a profound form of suffering, but I am uncertain as to whether the suffering we experience can be viewed as a problem to be solved. Perhaps I have a problem with the word, problem. Caretakers whether professional or nonprofessional are no strangers to suffering, being confronted with human pain and suffering on a regular if not daily basis. Those we care for, however, are not problems to be solved but human beings to be nurtured and loved. Problems arise when we either look upon those in need of our care as problems, or when we neglect to both love and compassionate ourselves. I return to the definition of compassion as the sympathetic consciousness of others’ distress together with a desire to alleviate it. Meeting our suffering self with compassion allows us to not only recognize our own distress but our need for healing in order to alleviate that distress.
Meeting our suffering self, compassionating ourselves, or demonstrating self-compassion has been described as having three main components: self-kindness, a sense of common humanity, and mindfulness (Neff, 2011). Self-kindness is the tendency to be caring and understanding with oneself rather than being harshly critical or judgmental. It also involves offering oneself soothing comfort in times of suffering. A sense of common humanity allows us to recognize that all humans are imperfect, fail, and make mistakes. As such it reminds us that we are not alone in experiencing our short-comings and flaws because it is all part of the human condition that we share with the rest of humanity. Finally, mindfulness is being aware of our painful feelings in a clear and balanced manner so that one neither ignores nor obsesses about disliked aspects of oneself or one’s life. ( .
In the physiological realm, research suggests that self-compassion may be a powerful trigger for the release the hormone oxytocin. Oxytocin is released in a variety of social situations including the act of breastfeeding an infant, positive parent-child interactions, and when someone gives or receives a soft, tender caress. Additionally, research is showing that the feelings generated by self-compassion can actually decrease cortisol levels associated with physiological and psychological stress. ( physiology of self-compassion html).
In summary, the message is clear; we owe it to ourselves and those for whom we care to compassionate ourselves. The first step on the journey is to recognize our own suffering. How do we do this? Self-awareness of those times when we are overly stressed, fatigued, discouraged, irritable and angry is a crucial part of the process. There are many relaxation techniques and deep breathing exercises and various resources available to us especially with the internet at our fingertips. There is no denying the power of mind over body and the methods we choose are most likely to be the ones with which we are most comfortable. Everyone has a place where they experience peace and joy. While we cannot be physically present in that place, we can practice traveling away to it in our mind through visual imagery. It is a known fact that pleasant thoughts produce pleasant feelings that result in positive actions. The beauty of our special place is that we can visit it as many times a day (or night) as we find the need. Prayer and meditation are likewise powerful means of compassionating ourselves and alleviating our suffering. The good news is that we can compassionate ourselves which ultimately frees us to compassionate others with the greatest healer of all, love.

Mary Ellen Luczun, MSN, RN, PMHCNS-BC
Assistant Professor
Mental Health Nursing
Touro College Department of Nursing

Neff, K (2012). The power of self-compassion. Retrieved from: ( physiology of self-compassion.html).
Neff, K. (2011). The power of self-compassion. Retrieved from (
Rupp, J. ( 1999). Your sorrow is my sorrow: Hope and strength in times of suffering. New York: Crossroad Publishing Company.
Peck, S. (1978). The road less traveled: A new psychology of love, traditional values and spiritual growth. New York: Simon & Schuster.

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Guest Posting by Kristie Aylett: AJCC Study Links Nurse Fatigue to Decision Regret

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Fatigued nurses more likely to regret their clinical decisions
A study in American Journal of Critical Care links nurse fatigue to increased decision regret

ALISO VIEJO, Calif. — January 2, 2014 — Fatigued nurses are more likely to express concern that they made a wrong decision about a patient’s care, according to a study in the January issue of American Journal of Critical Care (AJCC).

“Association of Sleep and Fatigue With Decision Regret Among Critical Care Nurses” found that nurses impaired by fatigue, loss of sleep, daytime sleepiness and an inability to recover between shifts are more likely than well-rested nurses to report decision regret.

Decision regret is a negative cognitive emotion that occurs when an actual outcome differs from the desired or expected outcome. For nurses, it reflects concerns that the wrong decision may have been made regarding patient care.

Although decision regret reflects previous decisions and adverse outcomes, it may also contribute to work-related stress and compromise patient safety in the future.

This link between nurse fatigue and decision regret adds to the body of evidence that supports the need for appropriate staffing to ensure the use of fatigue management strategies to promote both patient safety and a healthy work environment.

Lead author Linda D. Scott, RN, PhD, NEA-BC, FAAN, is associate dean for academic affairs and an associate professor at the University of Illinois at Chicago College of Nursing. Cynthia Arslanian-Engoren, RN, PhD, ACNS-BC, FAHA, FAAN, and Milo C. Engoren, MD, FCCM, from the University of Michigan, Ann Arbor, served as co-authors.

“Registered nurses play a pivotal role as members of the healthcare team, but fatigued and sleep-deprived critical care nurses put their patients and themselves at serious risk,” Scott said. “Proactive intervention is required to ensure that critical care nurses are fit for duty and can make decisions that are critical for patients’ safety.”

Critical care nurses and their employers must acknowledge the effect of fatigue, sleep deprivation and excessive daytime sleepiness on clinical performance and patient outcomes and must engage in strategies to mitigate these impairments.

Healthcare employers should implement scheduling models that maximize management of fatigue, ensure that support resources for clinical decisions are available and encourage the use of relief staff to provide completely relieved work breaks and strategically planned nap times.

“By working together to manage fatigue, critical care nurses and employers can ensure patients receive care from alert, vigilant and safe employees,” Scott said.

For the study, more than 600 nurses working full-time in critical care units completed a questionnaire on personal and work-related data, sleep quality, daytime sleepiness, sleep quantity, clinical-decision self-efficacy and decision regret.

Most respondents reported moderately high fatigue, significant sleep deprivation and daytime sleepiness, all of which affect their ability to be alert, vigilant and safe. Furthermore, the nurses were not likely to sufficiently recover from their fatigue-related states during non-work periods.

Decision regret was most common among nurses who are male, work 12-hour shifts and have lower levels of satisfaction with their clinical decisions.

The research was supported in part by the Kirkhof College of Nursing at Grand Valley State University, Grand Rapids, Mich., and the American Association of Critical-Care Nurses (AACN).

To access the study abstract and its full-text PDF, visit the AJCC website at
About the American Journal of Critical Care: The American Journal of Critical Care (AJCC), a bimonthly scientific journal published by the American Association of Critical-Care Nurses, provides up-to-date clinical research that focuses on evidence-based practice applications. Established in 1992, it includes clinical and research studies, case reports, editorials and commentaries. AJCC enjoys a circulation of 80,000 and can be accessed at

About the American Association of Critical-Care Nurses: Founded in 1969 and based in Aliso Viejo, Calif., the American Association of Critical-Care Nurses (AACN) is the largest specialty nursing organization in the world. AACN joins together the interests of more than 500,000 acute and critical care nurses and claims more than 235 chapters worldwide. The organization’s vision is to create a healthcare system driven by the needs of patients and their families in which acute and critical care nurses make their optimal contribution.

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